the many adventures of missorangedepp.

A memory remains, just a tiny spark, I give it all my oxygen, to let the flames begin.

2008-03-23T13:27:00.003+08:00

mood: bored.

listening to: let the flames begin - paramore

I've been thinking lately, that where do I stand, when it comes to the evaluation men always make on the idea of an ideal woman. My conclusion to it was, screw it, there's no such thing as an ideal woman.

The traditional ideal woman has to have a hot body, a pretty face, knows how to cook, dresses well, does housework well, feminine and all that jazz, and I'm nothing like that. Now I'm not saying that I'm denying this idea of an ideal woman simply because I am not like that, but there is so much more to the meaning of being a woman than just being that.

There's no ideal when it comes to being a woman, every single one of us is different, we are individuals. The question is should we conform to the traditional typical idea of an ideal and not be ourselves, or should we embrace our differences and individualism? If you ask me, all of us are ideal women, we are all special in our own way and deserve all the best thing in the world.

I love blasting rock music in my room, my room is sometimes messy, I don't really cook for i enjoy other people's cooking, I only do house chores when I feel like it (which is very rare), I am not skinny and delicate, I'm blur, I'm not feminine, my skin is bad, I don't really know how to put make up on my face, I love designing clothes, I love adventures, I don't shower more than once a day, I don't speak and laugh softly, I'm loud, I'm lame, I'm not the typical girl that you would like.

I'm just me. I'm ideal to me.

I'm sick at seeing all the women trying to look and act like each other, I need variation. I do get side-tracked once in a while, being someone I'm not, but hey , I am always back on track to become who I want to be and I am learning not to care what people think.

Think. conform or non-conform?

When I try to face it when I wake up I hate the way reality sets in, god I wish you could hold me, through the seven days of lonely.

2008-03-15T03:37:00.004+08:00

mood: Jolly jolly joy joy

listening to: seven days of lonely - I Nine

SPRING BREAK!!!!

it's awesome. seriously.

Finally I got to rest a lot, went to work a little, then rest a lot again. I think I'm really good at this, being a bum that is, so good that I deserve a bum award. If in music you get a grammy, in acting you get academy, then in bumming you get a bummy, muahahaha.... ok fine that was lame.

Look! It's the sun! *jump around mad*

The sun's out so Janice camwhore.

A new shirt that I got online, absolutely love it. Bet you guys know why muahahaa...

It's been pretty warm lately, I can feel that spring is coming soon. Please let it come soon, it will make me a very happy woman. I even got my spring and summer clothes ready already!

"I feel it in my fingers, i feel it in my toes...."

hahaha... I'm so happy and lame , which is a good thing. I'm glad that everything that I was worried or sad about is long gone now, I'm feeling super and mighty and jolly right now thus no one can take me down, wheeeeee......

I think I should go and do some work now, the long promised fashion photographer post will come soon, I yet again promise, once I'm done with homework I'll post that up.

Have a good one people, cheers.

I love you, still, very much.

I don't want to wait for our lives to be over I want to know right know what will it be

2008-02-08T01:24:00.000+08:00

mood: happy

listening to: i don't want to wait - paula cole

So life in Buffalo so far has been good, had lots of fun time with friends here and fun experiences. Has my share of down time as well cause i just miss him too damn much and there are things about myself that i just need to reflect on.

I started working on campus last week, and I took up extra shifts this week because I want to make more money so i can have some savings for myself to spend and yet not spend so much of my dad's money. Tiffany's working at where i'm working at as well. It's tiring but it is actually fun working there, seriously. It's worth the hardwork for they pay me pretty well, ka-ching.

As i promised , here are lots of pictures to kill ur modem:

My bed...

This is the other side of the room

I shall introduce my friends here...

This is Alvin. Compare the pizza to his size, yea, pizzas here are huge.

This is Zul.

Zul, Arcky and Ganesh.

Kelvern and Yuen Leng. Yuen Leng's my lovely housemate

At Forever 21.

Yuen Leng cooked for me hehehehe...

She just got her camera that day so she was very happy. This was taken at Gin Gin's , our fav place for chinese food here.

Yuen Leng, Tiffany ,Sarah and moi before Stefano's Birthday party.

Stef-who u asked? That's him over there, next to him is Nithya, his girlfriend. Nithya cooks really well

Us being stupid yet still look good haha

Sarah, Yuen Leng & Rie in the car. Never put a bunch of girls at the back seat of a car, this is what will happen.

IHOP (international house of pancakes) can beat Paddington house of pancakes anytime

Curry Chicken at Gin Gin's. It actually pretty good, not really spicy but it's good cause i can't really take spicy food anyway.

Prawns in fried eggs, yummy.... Yuen Leng, I want to go to gin gin now

Gin gin's bubble tea can beat a lot of bubble tea store in Malaysia. You can actually taste the tea, unlike some bubble tea place sells powdered and watered down bubble tea which sucks.

One fine day, smartypants Tiffany suggested that we should wear bikinis in the snow and eat ice cream.

proudly taken by me ahahaa, Adrian you suck!

We rock Buffalo's socks off.

Cold Stone sells good ice-cream. They need good spokeperson. We need sponsorship for ice-cream. According to logic, Cold Stone should get us to be their spokepeople.

While waiting for the Green Line. What's the Green Line you ask? Wait I'll show you

THE green line, the bus that take us to and fro from uni to where yuen leng parks her car.

SNOW!

When there's snow, you have to scrape ice or snow off your car.

Oh, and that's Jonathan. Yea they were scraping the snow while im in the car ahhaha.... sorry la, got two scraper only and I was cold so yuen leng asked me to wait inside hehe

We went to check out some baby clothing at the Fashion Outlet Mall near Niagara falls. Erm, that's actually a baby skirt on yuen's head.

Those are her crazy side.

And this is her pretty side.

Yea, they are my housemate and my neighbour.

The Gorgeousness of Sarah. Sarah so want to steal my camera, taalalaluuluulaaa...

See what he sent me? it even smell like him, but baby, next time write my name in front.

Okay, this should be it, if your modem is still ok then congratulation, if not then get a new one. I need to go study for tomorrow's test, there are two of them, arrggghhh... but luckily no work tomorrow because I have used up my 20 hours of work per week, yea, I'm working hard so i can get a nintendo wii and guitar hero you see?

I have a few post coming up though, so check often, I promise you if you appreciate nice fashion potraits, you'll love it.

I love you baby, and I miss you a hell lot. Come here fast, I need you.

we will fall together from the building's ledge,never looking back at what we've done,we'll say it was love

2008-01-06T13:49:00.000+08:00

mood: i miss you.

listening to : skyway avenue - we are kings

Here I am writing from New York. Buffalo is a cute city, everything is flat, not many tall buildings around and lots of snow. Well it looks boring, but somehow I love its simplicity, and people are pretty nice so far. I went pass my uni yesterday since it's on the way to my apartment, it's really near, I could walk there, but that will take 15 minutes and it's cold out there, like below zero degree celcius kinda cold, so i think I'll just take the shuttle to uni.

I had my first meal ever in Buffalo last night, pizza! Pizzas here are huge! Alvin is staying in my housemate's room (yuen leng's) at the moment, till either tiff or yuen leng is back, so he's been taking care of me. He and i are suppose to be having brunch now with Zul and the others, but alvin is still sleeping. I have no idea how I woke up so early, maybe I slept too much on the plane and I had a 4-hour nap yesterday afternoon.

So things are pretty awesome so far, will update more soon. Oh shit , still got the prevous stuff to blog about, oh well...

baby, i miss you.

No frustration on this vacation,this destination, this correlation,no consalation, only sensation,paradise.

2007-12-26T21:25:00.000+08:00

mood: Chilling :)

listrening to : Paradise - Fergie

Gonna be in Langkawi for four days and will be leaving to New York on the 4th. I know, I know, I haven't been blogging much, that's because I've been spending lots of time with family, friends and the boyfriend. However , I promise you, you who is reading this, that I'll update you when I'm back from the duty free heaven.

Update to come:

Hong Kong trip

Outings with the boyfriend

Waifon Saffron's birthday dinner @ palate pallate

and of course

langkawi :)

Till then, ciao.

Is it possible to put this night to tune, and move it to you?

2007-12-02T14:25:00.000+08:00

mood: laughing

listening to: Pachuca sunrise - Minus the Bear

hey wassup..Ramco here.i'll be your guest blogger for this time.Its my first time blogging so excuse me for my lameness..Since she is too lazy to blog for MY BIRTHDAY day out..i was like "you know what, i'll do it".

The day started like every other day..woke up, check my computer and she was already nudging me on messenger "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!....NUDGE!!" .haha...ok, it's my birthday...finally...after going through a stale year of 2007, i do deserve some nudging. And man, i cant believe that im 20..can even hear my bones cracking already..damn..i need a cane already..haha

So she decided to pick me up and reminded me to bring the camera so she can blog about it when she got home...errr..okie..haha. Rule#1, u do not let a guy like me sit next to u when youre driving. Rule#2, u do not let a guy like me sit next to u if he has a camera on his hand. This is what happened

"whee!! Happy birthday!"

"Whee..baby, im driving la..cut it out.."

"i mean like seriously..."

So we went for lunch at little penang and were really pissed off with all the people around since its like so packed and everyone is taking their time walking slowly...strolling around and not letting people pass..if we accidentally brush up against them they will stare at u with that strange look even though we said sorry...damn idiots..sayang was like "@$#@%^...damn uncles and aunties..so free..go home la??Am i missing something here??".Suddenly, she was like "oh..50%!!"...no wonder...hmm..

So we decided to bail klcc and head to pavillion..hmm..quite a bad idea rite?..new place..weekend..hmm...as we arrive there i looked at her and she smiled..yesss..more people..just what we needed..haha..so we were like..fine..lets just go in...luckily on the upper stairs there were not that many people..phew..i can predict that all the uncles in boxers and flip flops and aunties who just woke up and didnt shower were hogging j co's since i can see j co's boxes everywhere..hahaha

Pavillion was great..we walked up and down and looked through the shops that was available there..i was quite surprised with the selections of hoodies that they offer there this time..wow..cool..seriously need to go shopping..

i want this one..so kewwl

Apparently the shop just opened a few days..they didnt have any mirrors at all..and the fitting room was closed as well..yess..so we decided to take every picture of clothes to see whether it fits..haha..u know us...

too big..

too corny??

we realized that we cant take any pictures inside a clothing shop...sorry

She kept asking me what do i want to eat for dinner since shes buying me dinner..hmm..she offered chilli's..but...klcc..alot of people..hmmm..i'll pass..i know!!..lets eat something random...treat me food at jalan alor..hahaha..she thought that i was joking but looking at my serious face.."okie..i can do that..thats random".yea..u know instead eating chillis..lets have a feast..haha

i thought we ordered not that much but it will totally hit u when u finished all the food and realize that u cant stand up..that was orgasmic i tell u..literally the best birthday i have ever had..

she didnt finished her rice..

yup.

this is what happens when youre too full..

wait for it..

there u go.

We decided to have shisha after dinner at ampang to chill abit since we were too full and after that she drove me home, wished me happy birthday again and she left.That was seriously the best birthday experience that i have ever had.Good food,great surroundings,Great gal. i love u babe..thats all from me..cheers

Janice: My fav picture of ramco hahaha

I dont want to miss one smile,I dont want to miss one kiss,I just want to be with you,right here with you, just like this

2007-11-29T17:10:00.000+08:00

mood: tired.

listening to: I don't want to miss a thing - aerosmith

This has got to be the most tiring week ever. Speech, Music and communication cramp together, can die ok? At least I have settled the previous two, and now I only have communication to work on, 1500 words essay and a presentation based on it by tomorrow, can die also ok? I'm gonna blog now and work on it later, because the queen of procrastination said so, and I am the queen of procrastination.

Was playing msn "sudoku too" with sayang (the guy one) just now at Starbucks, there was this bunch of guys next to my table. One of the guy said loudly "Dating girl ah? Only the first month need to say things like 'i would die for you' or 'you jump I jump' one la! after you get into her pants, then don't need to care so much d one" Well , he thought that I'm listening to songs on my comp with my earphones on, the truth is I wasn't playing any song at that time so I heard every damn thing he said.

Then his friend said that he skipped class yesterday for his girlfriend. Then the jerk said "I'm not hanginig out with you anymore jor, where can guy skip class for girl one? I never skip class for girl before , u know why? because they all will skip class to see me" I'm sorry but at this point I was already very disgusted by him, you have no idea how fugly he looks, I wondered to myself which stupid girl would skip class to see him when the lecturer might be even more good looking then him.

A girl then walked into Starbucks buying a drink, he ogled her up and down and said to his friend "You want to borrow my car and money to take your girlfriend out right? ask her for her number for me then I borrow you." The friend just smiled embarassingly, for the guy was talking really loud.

Hey Mr. Big Shot, if you are so great why not you go ask for her number yourself, and stop whistling when any decent girl walk in or saying degrading statement about women . Seriously I wonder who would date you, you fugly sexist! Oh and for johnny sake can you speak softly? This is starbucks not pasar malam!

Jerk.

I got baby started playing sudoku and he's enjoying it, hahaha... man I tell you this game is addictive. Speaking of him, his birthday is this coming saturday, greet him happy birthday here if you want to :)

Holiday coming soon, can't wait. Flying back to Hong Kong on the 9th and coming back on the 16th. Then langkawi on the 27th till 30th. After that , flying off to buffalo on the 4th of january.... gosh, that is fast. Yes baby I heard you, krispy kreme from hong kong, roger that.

*~*

Some time ago I was watching all the britney spear videos, from Baby One More Time to Gimme More. What happened to this girl?

I miss her old self, but then again, she's a grown up and she can make her own choice to be what she choose to be, but I can't help but wonder , is she happy? Is it her own fault that she became like what she is now? or the paparazzi? or the pressure? If she could get back the kind of power she had when she was on stage back then, the kind of dance she could do and the kind of song that instantly got stuck in my mind once I heard it, I wouldn't mind getting her album again, or get tickets to her concert.

I want to see you dance like a pro again, not that crappy performance you did in VMA, you were so lost like you have no idea what you were doing on stage.

Wake up britney, there's so much more in you.

You, you who are reading, what do you think?

These fancy things, will never come in between,you're part of my entity ,here for infinity

2007-11-19T21:24:00.000+08:00

mood: okay i guess.

listening to: umbrella (acoustic) - marie digby

Got my I-20 today, and I'm one step closer to New York. The letter says that I need to be there before 7th January 2008, that's pretty fast huh? I still have so many things to settle - air ticket, confirming accomodation with tiff, filling up my health background form, applying for visa (this is an headache) and stuff like that.

After our usual curry mee and red ruby fix at little penang klcc today, ramco and I was talking in the car, then I looked at my I-20, and I said "Gosh... I'm finally going..." then he squeezed my hand and said "Baby, promise me, don't cheat on me?" I look at him and smiled and said I won't. He smiled back at me, but as he smiled, I saw his eyes, they are sad. It finally hits him, after looking at my acceptance e-mail & I-20, that I'm leaving soon. The hugs he gave me these past few weeks were extra tight, the kisses were extra passionate and the stares were extra loving. I kissed him on his cheek and hug him while he drove on, I knew he needed that.

The most random things always happen when I'm with Ramco. We went to a mamak at melawati for dinner, only finding ourselves walking into a set of a tv series. According to him , it's a malay tv series about police, which he said is lame. It was so random, so we just sat in the mamak and ate our naan with tandoori chicken while watching them shooting for next week episode. The worker that always speaks cantonese to me looked really cheerful today, i guess he was on screen, haha... I'm going to miss these moment, these random moments with him that I cherish so much. How I wish I could bring him over to buffalo, if only I could.

I know things will work out for us, and i have faith in us, I'm not sad, I'm just gonna miss you so much.

One good thing about leaving though... I need to get out of this house asap, staying here any longer will turn me psycho.

Oh yea, Chili's was closed today, god knows why. I miss the mushroom swiss burger again :p

I just want you close,where you can stay forever,you can be sure,that it will only get better

2007-11-09T00:31:00.000+08:00

mood:ecstatic yet kind of sad

listening to: No one - Alicia Keys

I got an email from University at Buffalo today... guess what

I FREAKING GOT ACCEPTED!

*dance around in circles while jumping up and down*

oh my god, finally!

which means... I'm leaving my baby soon...

Baby, we'll stay strong ok? I have faith in us *smile*

I love you, always.

and I'd give up 4ever to touch u,coz I know that u feel me somehow,u're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be and I dun want to go home right now

2007-11-06T22:49:00.000+08:00

mood: happy.

listening to : Our song.

My sayang,Tiffany, sent me a halloween card from Buffalo :) whoopeedoo... thanks sayng that's so sweet of you, I was literally jumping around the house when I saw it on the table, where my mum put it.

It's one month and three days since the day me and my sayang got together, the guy sayang, not tiff. (me and tiff both agreed upon that we can't be lesbo partners, it'll spoil our friendship and hence is a big no-no)

sayang,

Let's watch another random movie and laugh at it, like we always do, but please no more farting zombie sheeps.

Let's go to subway again, where we first had dinner together.

Let's burn a cd of our songs and play it in my car and we could sing loudly along, doesn't matter if your car can't play cd, I love your car, old school sial.

Let's go to breakers and the curve again, this you know why *wink*

Let's go to kinokuniya and borders, yes, again, cause we both just love books and being in a bookshop so much.

Let's tune into light & easy or mix fm again, cause we are just so in love corny love songs are the only type of songs that we seem to be able to relate to.

Let's walk around in circles again, cause that's when we are the lamest and that's funny, we both love our lameness.

Let's come up with random ideas, cause we are random and lame like that, like you say, it's just you and me against the world.

Let's just chill in the car and talk and stare into each other's eyes and talk again, hug me tight, cause that's when I know I'm safe with you and that you are different from any other guy.

Let's have a friendster comment war again, for that is how it all started.

Let's have a lot more months like this, cause i know you can't get enough of me.... okay, I can't get enough of you too.

Happy One month baby, I love you.

Our starbucks day.

Take one
Take two.

Okay, I give up... - - "

Sayang playing "dear bobby" on Monkeyman's guitar.

My sayang on drums, damn hot, seriously.

Where I feel safe.

Found this in Toy'r'us... haha...

This is what happens when you put two camwhores together.

Our candids.

First attempt: Failed, oopsy blurry.

us.

Why do stars collide into each other?

Dunno

Because... Stars are blind!

Yesss...

Some day, when I'm awfully low, when the world is cold, I will feel a glow just thinking of you... and the way you look tonight.

2007-10-23T01:13:00.000+08:00

mood: happy & content.

listening to : the way you look tonight - michael buble

Hmm... I really don't know what to write...

College life?

Well... it's fine. Started working on my music percussion performance, which is actually pretty fun, creating our own percussion piece using stuff like glass, trays and boxes etc etc etc. Then estee, haruka and i are gonna perform a dance for adp halloween night, that is going well too, choreographing and shit like that. Been missing a lot of classes, i really should get rid of that blissful habit of pressing on the 'snooze' button. Still waiting for my acceptance letter from SUNY buffalo, fingers cross. Peeps in college... same old same old, hang out here and there with different groups of people, never really like the idea of just hanging out with a specific group of people and be all anti-social towards others. Oh yea, halloween costume, any suggestion?

Family life?

Well... it's fine. Mum can still be a pain in the ass but i guess she's just worried. This doesn't mean that I have forgiven her for saying all those hurtful things. I guess the gap will forever be there. Dad is buzy as ever, just got back to Hong Kong from London. Rather worried bout him actually, he's under so much stress and his health is not exactly like back then. Bro is good I guess, with his girlfriend and all, but I can never get why he has to talk to her on the phone and put it on speaker mode, why? SPM is next month and I think he hardly studied, sigh, whatever.

Love life?

Well... it's fine. Awesome actually. He's the best guy I've gotten so far, best boyfriend ever. Been spending lots of time with him and I found that we are so alike in so many random and funny ways. So yea, tiff, pau and jin, no worries, I have settled down with this one, no more "just seeing", yes, this is my one and only. How long do I think this one will last? I have no idea, but I have a really good feeling about this one.

I love you.

"I don't need to go there, coz you can hoot me when I need a hoot."

hahahahhaaa.... what the fuck?

"Wait, what's a hoot anyway? "

Even the best fall down sometimes,even the wrong words seem to rhyme,out of the doubt that fills my mind,I somehow find, you and I collide

2007-10-06T18:57:00.000+08:00

mood:content.

Listening to: Collide - Howie Day

Random moments of the week:

When that sheep in "Black Sheep" farted and it exploded killing all the other zombie sheep.

When we saw that transexual individual right after watching "I now pronounce you Chuck & Larry".

When I decided to puasa as well.

When we ended up buka-puasa-ing at Subway, actually not that bad what, yummy :)

When we decided to play the dare game in Hartamas. I did a spongebob dance in front of Don's.

When I was angry and depressed and decided to play cards with you guys.

When I was dead bored and decided to ask you out.

When I sang "say a little prayer for you" aloud in college.

When we walked in circle while waiting for the movie.

When I saw that knowing smile on Resh's face.

Best random moment of the whole week:

When I was so bored and had nothing better to do and sent you that friendster comment.

"High five!"

*clap*

"sweet"

"shweeet"

Cause' I've seen love die way too many times when it deserved to be alive

2007-10-06T18:34:00.000+08:00

mood:Awe-ed.

Listening to: Emergency - Paramore

I want to play like him :(

He's a chun drummer la, you guys should check him out on youtube, his name is Chaserrr. Ramcoski claimed that he taught Chaserrr play, yea right, try harder my dear.

Okay la, okay la, you're an awesome drummer too :) muackz

*giggles cause of the movie*

"I love you"

*giggle cause of him*

"I love you too"

This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now,and I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by...

2007-09-26T22:05:00.000+08:00

mood: confused.

Listening to: Innocence - Avril Lavigne

Heroes is back with season 2!

I was so humping excited about it, i even left my laptop on when I was away in college so that I could watch it right when I reach home...

but NO, my brother just have to switch the modem off when he left for school and my download process was left at 63%. So I switched on the modem and keep myself occupied while waiting.

Well , Margaret Cho kept me entertained but waiting for youtube to load the videos takes time too, so I did this...

It's a site where you can mix & match clothes and stuff like that and create outfits! I had so much fun choosing the clothes and assessories it almost felt like shopping, except that I cant try them on. Ah, such indulgence! How I wish that I'm studying fashion designing and indulge in this kind of fun every single day, I really don't mind if that means dealing with difficult clients or long working hours.

After some Margaret Cho videos, some mix and matching outfits and some delicious green-tea-red-bean-paste mooncake, my heroes season 2 episode 1 is ready like over-cooked Char Siew. I devoured it like fat uncle swallows fatty pork, and maaaan, the show never let me down, it's oh-so-god-damn-humping good, seriously, go watch it.

Right, back to what I was suppose to blog about few days ago.

Taiwan was awesome and the whole experience was interesting, I don't really have much picture here with me, but heck, let's make this ...

My Taiwan Trip Part 1

This is us.

These are the girls. Don't have to see la, no hot one. Cute ones maybe.

This is us at the confucius temple. Yea, they have a temple where you can worship that old dude who is always pretty confusing.

I have no idea what they were doing.

My group left me alone with the other malaysian participants, how nice of them, they even turned around and took a picture of me then continued walking off, leaving me behind waiting for a green light to go, how nice. Actually it's okay, since I'm friend with the other participants too.

This is us during practices.

Shopping time! waiting for people who are late.

This is the vegetarian food buffet we went to, which totally doesn't seem vegetarian at all, but i swear to Johnny Depp these are 100% vegetarian food and tasty too.

This is five of us having mee-suah, best mee-suah I ever tasted, seriously. I'm so craving for it now.

This is one of the night markets we went. In Taiwan, you find the most delicious food in the night markets I spent 3 hours in this one trying different food, when I was out of there I was bloated with satisfaction.

honestly, I prefer candid pictures rather than those posed ones.

Then I was back in Malaysia , classes or 2 days and off I go again, this time, to REDANG!

Me, Haruka & Estee.

In our room. If you think because this is a college trip the room gotta be sucky, you're very wrong. We stayed in Laguna Beach Resort, which is beautiful, rooms are comfy and nice, and the food is pretty good.

The more more tea house, as in that house which was in that movie Sammy Cheng and what's-his-name-again starred in, "Summer Holiday" or “夏日的么么茶".

Dinner time. Geez, that BBQ beef is awesome, but those kiasu aunty and uncle from mainland China wasn't, but we still had a great dinner.

They served this buncho-water-color-looking drink, syrup bandung I think, which actually tasted good.

I bought this wrap thing while waiting for the ferry at the jetty. It's pretty and the flower on it is ORANGE, why did you think I got it anyway?

Siu Yok Haruka, Roasted Chicken Estee, Char Siew Me & Roasted Pig PA,Ryan.

Haruka & Bryan, two of the people I got to know better during the trip.

The squirrel or whatever it is that climbed into Bryan's room. Someone please tell me that this picture doesn't look wrong cause I can't stop laughing at it!

Yea, so that was my two weeks of travelling, shweet. Work that I need to pass up when I'm back in college, not so sweet. I miss Taiwan and Redang already. Like what I saw on Ms. Su Ann's whiteboard today, Taylor's should consider having a Redang campus or even Langkawi Campus, that would be diabetic sweet, mmhmm...

And now you have no guts to tell me what I had told you?

我愿做一阵和风，吹拂枯槁抚慰创伤。我愿我心是由有悠悠的海洋，普渡众生到彼岸...

2007-09-19T23:04:00.000+08:00

mood: Bored.

心情：闷。

Listening to: I wish

听着的歌：我愿

I have no idea why, maybe because after my taiwan trip, I feel like writing a post in chinese

不知道为什么突然间想用华语写一篇post，应该是因为刚从台湾回来吧。

Taiwan was awesome possum, but cause I haven't got all the pictures yet I've decided to blog bout it the next time. Sharing a funny story wouldn't hurt though.

台湾很好玩，但因为我还没拿到所有的照片所以我把关于台湾之旅的post留到下次才写。虽是这样，我还是可以在这里讲一个发生在台湾机场的趣事吧。

Louis, he's a guy from Australia whom I met during the competition. Nice guy he is. On the day of my team, the Malaysia team, leaving Taiwan, he was there in the airport. See, the people there prepared some apples for us to have as breakfast but we really couldn't finish them, so we passed the bag of apples back to Louis, who will be going back to where we stayed at after sending us off.

Louis, 他是一位我在比赛当中认识的一位澳洲参赛者。他真的很好人。在马来西亚离开台湾的那一天，他也在机场。主办单位准备了一些苹果给我们当早餐用，但实在是太多苹果了，我们都吃不完，所以呢，我们就把那袋苹果交给了Louis,因为他在送了我们走之后会回到我们住的地方。

Louis didn't want to hold the bag of apples and so I dared him to distribute the apples around the airport to strangers, which he immediately agreed, and insisted that I have to join him. Despite the fact of my teacher forcing us to stay at the same place together, I decided to go distribute those apples with him.

Louis当然不想拿着那袋苹果到处跑啊，所以我就叫他把苹果分给机场里的陌生人，他马上就答应了，还叫我跟他一起去。虽说我的老师是吩咐我们留在同一个地方的，但我还是跟他一起去分苹果了。

We managed to give all the apples away, how, you asked? Well, we kept telling them that we are from Malaysia and we cant finish our apples and we are late for out flight, plus lines like "an apple a day is healthy" & "It's free" which worked really well. Yea, we even call this day the "apple distributing day".

到最后我们把苹果都分完了，想知道我们是怎样把所有的苹果分出去的吗？我们就是告诉他们说我们是马来西亚来的，买了苹果吃不完，而且又要迟上飞机了所以请他们帮我们解决掉苹果。再加上我们不停的跟他们说“一天一粒苹果对身体好”和 “这是免费的”，这两句其实是最好用的。我和Louis还决定把今天定成“分苹果日”，哈哈。

Well Louis, if you're reading this, I had fun distributing those apples , we should do that again in some other airport, hahaa... I wish to see you again, keeep in touch alright?

Louis，和你一起分苹果很好玩耶，我们下次可以到别的国家的机场去分苹果，哈哈哈...希望能再次见到你，要保持联络哦！

Damn, I miss taiwan already.

顶（广东话），我已经开始在想念台湾了。

我去找你的时候你没在，但我还是想说谢谢你。想让你知道我得了满分哦，是因为你的鼓励。:)

And if I haver, whatever the fuck that means,I'm gonna be the man who havers next you

2007-09-07T15:31:00.000+08:00

mood: I miss u.

Listening to: I would walk 500 miles - Less Than Jake

Random things that I wanna say these past few days:

Zouk was friggin awesome!!!

No one messes with my friends! No one, I don't care if you are hot or pretty or gorgeous, if you mess with my friends, I'll freaking beat you up spartan style!

People, if you do not dance, then please move away from the dance floor! there's no place to dance and still people stand there and just stare at other people. PUH-LEASE, if you don't dance, move! so we can dance happily without being squashed.

Guys, "you look familiar, can I buy you a drink?" is NOT a good pick up line, seriously.

I miss my sayang :(

State University of New York, Buffalo replied me! I'm not accepted yet , but at least I know they received my documents. Now I have an application status page, gosh I'm so excited.

Happy Birthday Pau!

I keep bumping into my primary school / Villa Flora friends! It's amazing how we were seperated and never keep contact but somehow we are still link to each other in some ways. Yoke Jia, Daphne, Zhuo Hao, Shawn, Min Sheng, Diyana, Syuhada, Hyo Sun, Jasmine... gosh, it IS a small world.

Britney's new song is ok, matchbox 20's new song is goood!

I love Malaysia for the food and mamak and different languages swear words shared among races, other than these...nothing... okay fine, maybe pirated dvds too. No, Samyvellu, I don't love you.

Johnny's new movie coming soon!!!! Sweeney Todd, coolio...

I'm taking China Airline to Taiwan on Sunday... Oh no.....

okay, I'm sleepy, ta!

zzz.....

I miss you.

So stand on the edge with me,hold back your fear and see,nothing is real till it's gone.

2007-09-02T23:47:00.000+08:00

mood: tired.

listening to: before it's too late - goo goo dolls

You.

I hope you're happy with your new girl, and thanks for those memories. I admit I was very depressed when you were gone, but now when I look back, you never were my friend anyway, and that we wouldn't last long. I'm over you since a long time ago. So yea, hope you're doing fine there.

You.

You filthy little two timer, you very well known that you shouldn't have done that. I thought that you actually liked me, but then I found out that you said those things behind estee and I. You're fucking fake and stop acting all nice, it makes me sick.

You.

Thank you for the time when we were together, I miss it, really. Sadly how things between us never went further than that, but I'm glad that we're still friends.

You.

I really did loved you, very much actually. Just when I thought this might actually work out and I'm totally ready to commit, you bailed out, saying that you can't commit cause your ex made you like that. It's really unfair but then again "all's fair in love and war". It's funny how it still hurt when I chat with you, but no way, I'm not gonna turn back and come crawling back to you and beg. No way.I'm moving on.

You.

You're a really good friend. Thank you so much for always being there for me. However, I'm sorry I can't have what you have for me, and I know that I have already hurt you and I'm really sorry. I'm glad that we're still good friends though, I know we're cool :p

You.

I don't know how much do I mean to you, but I really enjoy the time we have together now and I'm gonna appreciate it. I'm not gonna hope for anything but I'm also gonna have faith. I don't know whether you'll just chuck me away once you're done with here, or will you actually want to continue us. I'm just happy for now, and that's actually what i need , at least for now. I really don't care what those horrible people in college say about me, but I don't care, it's just all bullshit to me. I just want to be happy. You get what I mean?

I miss you.No. I'm not making a u-turn back to you, it's a highway and i'm on the fastlane speeding forward.

We'll scream loud at the top of our lungs,and they'll think it's just cause we're young,and we'll feel so alive.

2007-08-26T23:32:00.000+08:00

mood: merdeka

listening to: The great escape - boys like girls

How have I been you ask? Good, if you cut out the parts with my mum in it. She really is a pain in the ass, I used to cry because of her, but now I just couldn't be bothered anymore, I've become so numb.

On a lighter note, I had a great time with the students from Ohio University. They are Andrew, Sean, Ray,Molly and Max, if any of you , by any chance, is reading this, I really love hanging out with you guys :) Will post pictures up when I got pictures from them.

Thanks to them, I got closer to Estee too, which is good, I never knew that I could be this close to her, and she's such a sweet and funny girl, you should see her when she's drunk, she's the cutest drunk person I ever seen, Andrew agreed on this.

And if you're wondering if I'm still hurt because of him, nah, I've been way better. Told you I'm a tough cookie *wink* I'm a spartan woman, muakakakaka

merdeka.

Well this is not ur fault,but if im without u then I will feel so small,and if u have to go,always know that u shine brighter than anyone does.

2007-08-20T22:25:00.000+08:00

the mood: Alright,still.

Listening to: Brighter - paramore

No. He said no. Oh well... I rather be single for now anyway, at least till I transfer to the states. No worries, you know I'm a tough cookie :)

My hopefully final semester started. I have a good feeling about it, it's gonna be fun especially the cross-cultural communication class, ADP brought in 5 students from Ohio University to join us for one semester, and they are all doing this subject. Each of them has been assigned to one host to take care of them and bring them around KL through out the whole semester. I'm one of the hosts, Estee and Haruka are too. Well Mr. Vijaya said the course is gonna include a lot of outings and it's very activity based, can't wait for class to starts.

Went back to college today. Finally got my results and timetable for this semester. Miss Su-ann introduced me to Molly, the girl from Ohio that I'm hosting. She's really nice and I found out that we share a lot of things in common, she plays guitar and I play drums, heck, we can even form a band, hahahaaaa.... Estee even told me that we dress kind of alike.

Speaking of college today, chilling with Ryan and the others was fun, we got so bored we even sang loudly in subang square. I also found out that Ryan the Madcat loves orange too, both the fruit and the color, just like me!

All in all, it was a good day, good enough to keep my mind off things.

You love me, but you can't commit, what the fuck?

All you have to do is hold me, and you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be If you'll trust me, love me, let me, maybe, maybe...

2007-08-18T11:19:00.000+08:00

mood: scared yet anticipating.

listening to: maybe - kelly clarkson

That woman! Grrrrr-oaannn.....!!!

10 things I hate about staying with my mum:

1. She waking me up early in the morning by knocking on the door like a mad ram. It's my holiday for god sake! it's not like I can wake up this late when the new semester starts!

Besides, she wakes me up for the most random reasons, for example ,today, she just woke me up and let this guy into my room and spray some smelly thing around my room, I wasn't even awake yet! I later found out that it's some anti-pest thing, she should have let me know earlier right? grrrr....not to forget sometimes she just wake me up so that she can nag me even more... please la, if you're a morning person, so be it, because I'm not a morning person during my holiday! I can't be forced out of bed to get scolding and be happy for the rest of the day, thank you.

2. Forcing me to clear up my brother's mess. I hate it. It's because of this my brother has no sense of responsibility. If i complain, I get more scolding, she'll tell me that he's my brother and I should help. So every single time he leaves tissues, dirty dishes, wrappers and what not around , I have to clean it. Seriously,wtf?

3. Force me to do chores when she knows that I'm not free. Excuse me, who's the one who has all the time in the world cause she's not working now? and who is the one who has college, and she only has a pathetic two weeks holiday? I'll keep my room clean that's for sure, but stop asking me to do your laundry , wash your plates or sweep and mop the floor of your room.Sorry la, I'm not your maid, you can't order me like that, if you want one, get one yourself.

4. She always complain that I go out too much, while she's the one who goes out every night. She also does not let me make my own decision.I'm freaking 20 ok? It's not like I can't take care of myself at all, I'm no longer that little girl who tag around wherever mummy goes , I want my own life too. She very well know that I'm just like her - someone who likes to go out and have her own freedom - then freaking let me be! If she thinks that it's a motherly responsibility to be all overprotective and controlling, someone please let her know that she's very wrong.

5. She complaining about me sticking too many posters and pictures in my room. It's MY room ok? Why can't I decorate it the way I love?

6. She loves to jump to conclusions. I reaaaallly hate this one, this is one of the reasons why I don't really want to talk much to her nowadays. Pisses me off.

7. Pms. She can be all lovely and happy and cool and *insert wonderful traits* for one second, and just when I thought it's safe to talk to her, her gives me a 180 degree change, and become all hot-temper and snappy and *insert bad traits*

8. She treats my friends very very very well, like they are her children and I'm not. Why can't she just be nice to me too?

9. When I need to buy anything or pay for anything, she'll always say : " ask from your dad" or " remember to get the money back from your dad". Sometimes I wonder,how much does she spend on me?

Education? no my dad's supporting me. Groceries and bills and clothes and house rent? no, my dad sends money over every month. Phone bills? no, both my brother's and my line are being paid by my dad's card. Car? She always claim back the expenses from my dad. I seriously pity my dad.

10. Though all these hate, I still love her. Shit la, this mother - daughter bond thing is never going away. You know why I've been avoiding talking to her? Cause we always end up in fights. I mean I know once I transfer to the states the gap between me and my mum is gonna be wider, and I really wouldn't want to make things worst now, that's why I'm avoiding her to avoid fights. In a way, she's slowly pushing me away from her. That's bad.

Sorry to bore you with this ranting of mine, but I just need to, maybe it's the bad anti-pest spray smell.

Please give me a yes, I'm still holding on to the 50% of hope. I think we deserve a chance.

Life can show no mercy,it can tear your soul apart,it can make you feel like you’ve gone crazy,but you’re not...

2007-08-06T15:14:00.000+08:00

Mood: Awesome Possum!

Listening to : Lost - Michael Buble

Summer Holiday!! Awesome Possum!!!

Wheeeee........

Celebrated my birthday at QBA @ Westin KL, had a blast there, will post pictures up once I get them from Albert the wacky ape-y monkey.

Oh yea, speaking of Albert, him being his awesome self, he got me a Rubik's cube!

And so I decided to mix it up and start solving. I started with getting the 2X2 cube then I got the 3X2 cube and eventually I got one side all solved without upsetting the 3X2 cube, which means I got a whole layer! I was so excited I called Albert to tell him. Guess what, he then told me that I will need to google for the formula from then on..."F@#%$!" cause there's still no internet connection at my new home ( Oh yea, in case you don't know, I moved to Bandar Utama).

Thank god for Albert the monkey , who sent me the formulas through sms, or else I wouldn't be able to sleep the whole night because it bugs me not solving it. Hahaa.... he asked me to take a photo with it as a proof of me solving the cube by myself for the first time in my life, haha.

~*~

Holiday has been good so far,here's what I did:

1. Unpacking and arranging stuff at the new place ( Okay, this wasn't that good, but still, I kind of like my new room.)

2. Drumming improved! Ian, my drum sensei started to teach me songs, I'm learning "chop suey!" by system of a down now, pretty tough, but still I'm glad that I'm starting to play songs.

3. Sinfully splurged, for I got ang pow from relatives for my birthday.I got a dorothy perkins white bag, a zara black silky shorts and a forever 21 tee that says "more candy less war" :) sorry la, I'm a girl what, sure get excited over new purchase one k?

4. Hanging out with Tiff. She's leaving soon :( Sayang came to my place that day and helped me on unpacking, then we went to the curve to settle her farewell thing

5. Rubik's cube! hahaha

6. Bummed and bummed and bummed, oh wait, I still have 3 dvds to watch!

okay gonna go and bum somemore now, ciiaaooo...

Spider pig, spider pig, does whatever a spider pig does. Can he swing, from a web?... No he can't, cause he's a pig. Look out, he's the spider pig...

2007-07-28T21:35:00.000+08:00

Mood: Contented

Just watched: The Simpsons Movie.

Life's been treating me good lately. Why you asked?

Birthday approaching, can't help but feel a little excited.
Dad bought me Godiva chocolate.
Watched the Simpsons Movie and had the best laugh of my life.
Did something right , which I should have done a long time ago.
Realized that I'm more comfortable with who I am now, compare to last year.
Seeing someone.
Summer semester ending soon, holiday!
The highlight of my hair turned out nice.
Realized that I've grown up a little bit more.
Going to taiwan soon for the competition.
Watched Tiff's ballet show, I thought it would be boring but I was wrong ,I actually loved it, ballet is cool, and ballet girls got hot bodies :p
Met lots of good people.

Yea I guess that's about it.

Wait.... I think I left one out.

CARL'S JR IS IN MALAYSIA!!! woopeeedooo... yummy yummy

Go try it, it's really goooood. No kidding.

And here we go again,with all the things we did, and now I'm wondering, just who would I have been

2007-07-23T16:19:00.000+08:00

Mood: Fine, just fine.

Listening to : Here we go again - Paramore

Best quote of last week:

Mum: So where are you going tonight?

Me: ermm ... I'm going out clubbing with my friends tonight.

Mum: Where?

Me: Asian Heritage Row, Maison.

Mum: Asian Heritage Row? I went there last week. You're going there? Aiya...There's where all the young punks go you know?

Me: Mum... I AM a young punk!

*giggle*

Mum, mum, mum... mums will always be mums.

Anyway, I'm at Starbucks now, yea i know, again. Well, free wireless and my favorite Raspberry Frap Tea is here, can't complain :p

Things keep changing recently. Yea, I know it's normal for things to change , that's how life goes right? Change like how my mum cancelled her trip this morning before her flight, daaammmnn, just when I thought I can be away from her for one week.

Oh yea.... My hair is not a virgin anymore.I now have red highlights! hahhahaa... and now Albert the wacky ape-y monkey calls me the red possum.

Great.

Is it me or Luna Lovegood in the Harry Potter movie is really cute ?

Work it harder make it better do it faster makes us stronger.

2007-07-19T15:01:00.000+08:00

Mood: Restless.

Listening to: Harder.Better.Faster. Stronger. - Daft Punk

This is Albert. My Bestari Indomee + gigs + ponytail + Rubik cube buddy. Thanks a whole bunch to him, I can show you faithful readers some pictures. You see, I don't have a camera, which is very very sad cause I loveee taking pictures, that's also the reason why my blog doesn't really have pictures.

Do you know Bestari's Indomee is humping awesome possum? This picture is taken by Albert with his uber awesome possum camera with the awesome possum fish eye lens. I think now you know why he call me possum.

We went to Starbucks before going to see Reza Salleh's performance at Groove Junction. Notice the Rubik Cube? Yea, that's the little evil thing that bugs me all the time now.

Then I decided to play with that gadget that fascinates me always, the camera.

The fish eye lens is damn fun.

It makes the drink look huuuge!

My little fish eye moment.

Albert's little fish eye moment.

Thanks Albert, for being a great buddy and sent me these pics , and stop calling me a possum you whacky monkey!! hahaha

Damn... I still can't solve the Rubik cube, AARRGGHHH....

Well maybe I'll put my love on ice,and teach myself, maybe that'll be nice, yeah.

2007-07-17T18:24:00.000+08:00

Mood: bored.

Listening to : Black math - the white stripes

I believe I did blog about my theater 102 play - the Cubicles, yea, so here are the pictures.

The poster.

Welcome to Buckingham Pt. Ltd.

I'm Sarah, the office -gossip-coffee-addict, hhaha...

Jolin is Debbie, the sexually deprived perfectionist. Well that guy whose head is on the supposingly photocopy machine is Dennis ,playing Charlie, who's the office metrosexual. Charlie & Debbie are always fighting against each other.

Catfiiiiggghhhttt in the office, wooohoo...

Yugi is George, the boss.

Sarah loves to eavesdrop, she really really does.

Isa is Joseph , the boss's spoilt son.

Daryl is James, the gay personal assistant of the boss.

Miki is Tiffany, the office flirt & Estee is Margaret, the controlling wife of Manuel.

Jennifer is the Vice President, the one whom the whole office couldn't get in touch with and all the competitions between the employees to take her place started because of this.

Navvin is Manuel, the funny Mexican. He was the star of that day for his potrayal of Manuel was real good.

Raihan is Ms. Bullakh, whom we passionately call Ms. "Bollocks" . She's the rich Arab lady who is our troublesome difficult bitchy client.

Last but not least, the very awesome possum Mr. Vijaya.

The cast of The Cubicles, gonna miss this play a lot, I had so much fun.

To those who came for the play, thank you so much for supporting and I hope that you guys enjoyed the play :)

Owh... I miss shouting "Maanuueeellll....."

ring,ring,ring,ring,ring,ring,ring, bananaphone, dubdubidubbidub...

2007-07-16T00:20:00.000+08:00

mood: Happy

listening to: Bananaphone - Raffi

Last night I went to Dexter's house for his BBQ party. After dinner, we decided to play Taboo, and maaan, it was outrageous.

Here are some classic Taboo moment :

(The word : Wisdom )

Pau: Ok ok, this is very easy. I'm full of?

Janice : I know I know !! SHIT!!

Dexter's sister: Nonono.... CRAP!!

Pau: ...

( The word : Air- conditioner )

Pau: Okay... When you're hot, you turn this on.

Janice: GUYS!

Pau: ...

( The word: Wig , you can't use the word hair, head)

Dexter's sister: erm erm... artificial threads on your scalp...

Everyone: ...

(The word : Bicep )

Pau: (Pointing to his bicep) What is this?

Dexter's sister: Muscle!!!

Pau: nonono...

Janice : I know i know!!! FAT!!!

Pau: ...

So as you can see, we had tons of fun, hahhaa.... poor pau, he really should stop using himself as a hint, it really doesn't work, hahhaaa....

Will post pictures up next time.

My new laptop is awesome possum.

You know how much I love you Daddy, but if you don't mind, I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time.

2007-07-02T13:54:00.000+08:00

Mood: thankful.

Listening to: Butterfly kisses - Bob Carlisle

Thank you Daddy... i really can't thank you enough. Every single thing I want , every single thing I merely mentioned, you always try to make sure everything I need is there. I know you want to make it up to me for not being there with me most of the time, but it's okay daddy, I don't want to be spoilt. Do you know that when you ask me to go ahead to get a new laptop and it'll be my birthday present, I feel so much like a spoilt brat, that I should be ashame of spending more of your money...seriously. Thank you daddy... I love you :)

This is how usually my conversation with my mum goes:

Mum: Are you working on your application?
Me: Yeap
Mum: I want you to go to San Franc, don't go to New York, it's a very dangerous place and don't think I don't know why you want to go there, coz your friends are there , right?
Me: No mum, can I make my own choice of which uni I'm going to?
Mum: Make your own choice? Your not even paying for it
Me: (in my mind) Neither are you mum, dad's paying.
Mum:(Continue nagging) Why you never put in effort to communicate with your family? You think your friends are so great? Fine, if you don't need us you can leave the house.
Me: ... (lock myself in the room)

This is how usually my conversation with my dad goes:

Dad: (after signing some forms for my application) is that all?
Me: yea, thanks daddy.
Dad: You do whatever you have to and want to okay? I'll always support you no matter what.
Me: (stoned for a while) thank you daddy, that's actually what I need to hear from you or mum... you know, nowadays it's really hard to talk to mum...
Dad: I know what you mean kay? but try to bear with it ok? very soon you'll be leaving and she's your mum, just try to listen, and stop talking back ok?
Me: yea i will (look at dad and smile)
Dad: (stood up coz we're leaving the restaurant) Okay, you take care ok? drive safely
Me: When are you going back?
Dad: tommorow, 6pm flight
Me: Okay... you take care, don't smoke and drink so much
Dad: Ok (hugs me and kiss me on my cheek) take care k? say hi to your mum for me
Me: ok i will

so yea, you can tell there's a big difference.

It's not that I don't want to communicate with my mum, in fact I love her, it's just that I don't know why whenever we talk, she just have to nag in a very bad way, and somehow the whole thing ended up in an arguement, so eventually I try to avoid talking to her.... bad I know... will try to make things right, sigh...

one question before I stop
Am I a horrible person? I need brutally honest answer, thank you :)

I want you to know that I miss you ,I miss you so.

2007-07-01T18:33:00.000+08:00

Mood: confused.

Listening to: Letters to you - Finch

A quick update here.

We got into the international finals, which will be held in Taiwan, which means I'm going to Taiwan in September!!! Wheee...

Unless my mum doesn't let me go....

Okay, better don't jinx myself now.

Couldn't blog or even be online much recently, my laptop is fucked.

Have to wait for my dad to come and get me a new one, damn... do you know how hard it is to open my mouth and request my dad to get something for me, I just don't want to waste too much money, considering that I'm going to transfer to US next year and I'm sure that will cost a hell lot. Plus, my bro just got a damn chun comp.... Which make asking my dad to get me a new laptop so much tougher. My mum you asked? Urgh... Don't even think about it, she hardly get me anything, if she does , she'll just ask me to claim money back from my dad.

I'm now busy with theater 102... the play is on this Wed and Thurs... and to be honest, we're not quite ready yet. More practice and less argument is needed. Sigh... I hope everything will turn out alright. Dennis and Yugi said I improved since Theater 101, and Mr. Vijaya gave me a good remark, that's a good start I guess.

Right, till next time , when my bro is kind enough to let me use his comp, or the next time I'm at someone's house, haha.

Hey you Rebounder, who are you? I heard the song, and now please tell me who are you?

Dancing In the moonlight, everybody's feeling warm and bright, it's such a fine and natural sight, everybody's dancing in the moonlight...

2007-05-30T01:25:00.000+08:00

mood: Happy

Listening to: Dancing in the moonlight - Toploader

It's one of those post where I start off with apologizing for a long hiatus. Well I've been really busy with college and practices for a competition.

What competition you ask? It's this song writing competition my singing group thingie joined,we work humping hard for it, and we got into the final, which will be aired live on 24th June on Astro channel 19, yea, chinese songs, but the songs are nice! There's gonna be a sms voting thingie so please tune in and vote for us if you are free, thank you :)

You know what's the best part of this? There are 12 songs in the final, 6 will be eliminated and the other 6 will be sent to Taiwan to compete against other countries! My group had won prizes in Taiwan in the past 3 years, but I didn't follow them for I was either having exam or was busy or was in Hong Kong, so this year I might stand a chance to go, wheee... so wish me luck ;)

~*~

So you can tell that I've been really busy and tired. This doesn't mean that I'm as emo as I know I was before, surprizingly, I've been really happy, and I guess because that I'm happy, good things are starting to come my way.

Even those few minor undesired incidents and those few bitches in college didn't bother me at all, an improvement I guess. I switched my focus on my studies and the competition and it worked! The only down side is that I don't get to see my friends , especially Tiff, Pau and Jin much since I'm seriously that busy, I miss you guys a humping lots!! (see, I've been trying to find words to substitute "fuck")

~*~

Oh yea, Justin & Shiwei came back from the States and some of my friends in Aussie came back too, so gonna have lots of gathering and catching up with them. Glad you guys are back man, welcome home.

Tiff is leaving soon though... was on the phone with her just now and when she mentioned it, I could tell that she's sad... Gonna miss her a humping lot, but chances are high that I'm gonna see her there in January, considering the fact that I'm applying to Buffalo as well.

Oh shit, application... really have to stop procrastinating so much.

Anyway... gonna sleep now, I'm humping tired, will post pictures if there's any, hhaha, and I'll update more , I ,yet again, promise.

You think that I don't know that you read my blog?

Do you really think that she wouldn't tell me what you told her?

Do you think just by writing that and tagging will gain back her trust?

Do whatever you want or say whatever you wanna say darling,

cause now you're just a fool to me.

I see pain, i see need,i see liars and thieves abuse power with greed ; i had hope, i believed,but i'm beginning to think i've been deceived...

2007-05-15T23:21:00.000+08:00

Mood: Recovered, again.

Listening to : No More Sorrow - Linkin Park

And so the summer semester started.

I realised I'm just not good at blogging bout things that happens in my life, like blogging bout what I did with my friends or what exactly happened during college or my day out. I like to write bout how I feel and little things that inspire me in my life, might sound a little like a poser but yea, that's what I write about.

For instance, I was driving home that day after the photoshoot thing with Tiffany. I switched on my car cd player, My Chemical Romance was in it, "I Don't Love You", those of you who are close to me would know that MCR always reminds me of a certain someone, and so I switch the player to the radio mode. Guess what, Fly fm was playing that exact same song, it's fated I guess,instantly those memories flooded back, and I hummed along to the song. After a short moment of bad singing-along, this thought hits me : usually when I listen to MCR songs, memories will flood and usually me being a cry baby will start tearing... but this time, I thought of all the things that related to him, and I smiled, yea, I smiled not cried. Then I told myself : " Congratulation , you just recovered for good. "

I'm out of rehab.

I'm hooked on to you, I need a fix, I can't take it, just one more hit i promise I can deal with it.

2007-05-12T15:48:00.000+08:00

Mood : Relapse, if you get what I mean.

Listening to: Addicted - Kelly Clarkson

Have you ever been addicted to something? Be it an object, an action or a person, whatever. So addicted that it crash you when you don't get enough of it. If you say no, you just never seriously got addicted to something or someone.

Then you realized that you're in too deep, you can't pull yourself out and so you get into the rehab stage. You do whatever you can to keep your mind off that particular thing or person. You get help from people to talk you out of your addiction. You get yourself busy with all kind of activities. That's the rehab stage.

Next you recover. Your rehabilitation plan worked out. You can finally live without the object or person and all of a sudden life seem so much more and happier. However , this can have two endings. One,that object or person is out of your mind and that's it, it's out of your life. Two, what you did during rehab was just repressing your needs and thoughts so that people around you wouldn't be worried or call you silly, and very often this will lead to a relapse.

To me, the relapse is the most depressing stage. Not "oh my god, without this I'm gonna die" or "oh my god, I don't have this object or person so I'm gonna cry like there's no tomorrow" kind of depressing, but that kind of feeling you get when you realized all you've done before this had no use, you're still not out of it, that object or person is still in your mind . What's even more depressing is knowing that you can't have that object or person you want no matter how much you plead.

Go on, laugh, or even be sarcastic, I wouldn't care, cause I'm relapsing.

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses her blanket, but I've gotta get a move on with my life,it's time to be a big girl now...

2007-05-12T00:22:00.000+08:00

Mood: Recovering, if you get what I mean.

Listening To : Big Girls Don't Cry - Fergie

Chillex, Janice, Chill. It's just a tire punture, and it's all ok now.

You were lucky that you only discovered the tire puncture when you were at the petrol station, it's so much better than stranded in the middle of the road with no fuel,a puntured tire and a useless brother. Plus,your mum actually came to see if you are okay, so consider yourself lucky. I know, I know... you've been pretty unlucky lately, and that all your close friends, except Jin, had a tire punctured this year, but it shouldn't bring you down :)

" I hope you know, I hope you know, That this has nothing to do with you

It's personal, myself and I,We got some straightening out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket

But I've gotta get a move on with my life,It's time to be a big girl now

And big girls don't cry"

- Big Girls Dont Cry by Fergie

I know I shouldn't miss you... but somehow I still do.

Hurt at first, a little bit, but now I'm so over, so over it.

2007-05-02T19:46:00.000+08:00

Mood: Happy
Listening to: Over it - Katherine McPhee

Langkawi was awesome possom. Since I'm such a procrastinator, and if you

want to know what happened during the trip, you can read bout it on

Tiff's Blog or Tim's Blog.
They did a really good account on it , kudos to them :)

So yea, haven't been updating much , I promise I'll write more.

Oh yea, have you heard that PEOPLE's 2007 Most Beautiful Person is none other then my favorite girl in Hollywood ( Yea, to me she beats Keira, though I love Keira too), Drew Barrymore!!

I mean, look at her, ain't she gorgeous? And this is her without make up on.

She's naturally gorgeous! People at PEOPLE sure have good taste in what is beautiful. Drew Barrymore is beautiful both inside and outside. She's positive and she shine in her own special way and that's what I love about her. That's what I call beautiful, not hot body,designer clothes and thick make up. For this, I think she totally deserves the title, congrats Drew.

Here are some quotes from her that I like:

"There's something liberating about not pretending. Dare to embarrass yourself. Risk."

"I believe in fate. I believe that everything happens for a reason, but I think it's important to seek out that reason - that's how you learn."

"Life is very interesting. In the end, some of your greatest pains become your greatest strengths"

"As much light as I have inside me, there's just as much darkness, I'm afraid. There's a polarity, and I still have demons to work out."

"I'd rather be a few pounds heavier and enjoy life than be worried all the time."

Aww... I just love her :)

Here are a few more pictures of beautiful celebrity that made it into the PEOPLE 2007 Most Beautiful People list without make up. Enjoy :)

Rachel Bilson

Eva Longoria

Rashida Jones

Rihanna

Katherine McPhee

Jessica SimpsonJessica BielJessica Alba

See the trend? I'm considering naming my future child , if it's a girl, Jessica, hahhahaahaa....

When you go , would you even turn to say " i don't love you , like I did yesterday."

2007-04-21T19:32:00.000+08:00

Mood: Better than Friday midnight.

Listening to: I don't love you - My Chemical Romance

And so this is the end.

I will not have any feelings for you anymore, I will try my best to totally let go. I don't cry for you any more, I guess I just needed an answer, thank you for being so honest with me. Don't you worry, you know I'm stronger than I seem to be. It might seem funny to many people, four days of perfect dates and it lasted me so long, I guess I was just a fling to you, but you weren't to me. Now, I'm letting go, and I'm glad that we are still friends. I just want you to remember me, and that I once like you this much, then I'll have no regrets. Thank you for all the memories and take care.

Goodbye, so long, goodbye.

Your memory will carry on ,we'll carry on ,and in my heart I can't contain it,the anthem won't explain it.

2007-04-17T20:37:00.000+08:00

Mood: Reminiscing

Listening To: Welcome To The Black Parade - My Chemical Romance

I have a love/hate relationship with reminiscing.

I love sitting down alone, listen to songs that bring back memories, no matter good, bad, sweet, bitter... anything, as long as it's something that once made a great impact on my senses. I love it when those feelings hit me again when I'm reminiscing, they might make me cry or laugh or smile sweetly again, just like back then.

I know, you realistic people out there might say that there's no point in looking back, sentimental values means nothing. Sorry but sentimental values means a lot to me.

However, as much as I love it, I hate it too... just as I'm smiling to those time I had, another feeling hits. I suddenly realized that there's no way I could go back to those sweet time again, I realized there's nothing I can do to erase guilt and faults, I realized that there's no way that special someone is coming back to me again... well , you get my drift... then the hatred towards reminiscing crawls out , and I'll move on, again.

Confused condition yet to be solved, unanswered question yet to be answered.

Oh well... till my next reminiscing moment.

~ * ~

2 more hours to your birthday... Have a blast there, get yourself drunk.

Happy 20th Birthday Nicholas...

Hugz and Muackz

A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins , I will never ask if you don't ever tell me, I know you well enough to know you never loved me.

2007-04-16T20:43:00.000+08:00

Mood: Irritated

Listening To: Cute without the "E" - Taking Back Sunday

Guess what, someone stole my business communication final report , and now I have to do it again.

I know, what the f**king f*ck hell right?

My deadline for passing up the report again is tomorrow morning at 7am, I love you Mr. V, I love you. Luckily Tiff helped me by writing the intro, you don't know how grateful I am.

As for those of you who are close to me would know that it has been a few really tough , stressful weeks for me. However, thanks to stress, I found my 10 favorite stress relievers...

1. Heroes

- I can't explain why everytime I watch it I become very happy.

2. Jello

- i love them, they makes me happy, yummy. Come to think of it, I only ate jello last night for dinner, no wonder I woke up hungry this morning.

3. Reading blogs

- I got friends who blog bout interesting, entertaining stuff.

4. Blogging

- well, maybe my posts aren't that interesting, but blogging is like letting out your thoughts, which is good for stress relieving.

5. Johnny Depp

- you have no idea how amazing my desktop/wallpaper looks now, everytime I look at it I fall for Johnny even more.

6. Funny songs

- songs like Bananaphone and Lollipop lift my spirit, especially bananaphone, damn funny and catchy.

7. Sleep

- something that I need badly, my dark circles are like my best friends, they never leave me.

8. Clubbing

- drinks, dance, music, fun people, hilarious stories... what more can a stressed girl ask for?

9. Stoning

- it IS a great stress reliever, I'm serious.

10. Procrastinating

- come to think of it, stress relieving is like an excuse for procrastinating, isn't it? Well, that doesn't stop me from blogging though the freaking work is due at 7am.

So yea , that's about it, gonna go back to more typing.

Bleh... I want Jello.

For what I've done, I'll start again, and whatever pain may come. Today this ends,I'm forgiving what I've done.

2007-04-15T01:12:00.000+08:00

mood: happy happy

Listening to : What I've Done - Linkin Park

This is what I'm craving for at the moment.The W880i... yummy.

Theater final's over, kind of having post-production syndrome now. It was a great play and we got great feedbacks. Well I got a low mark, but so what, the audiences totally enjoyed the play, that's what important.

I'm doing Theater 102, and I'm playing Viola from Shakespeare's 12 Nights, my favorite Shakespeare's character. The play is gonna be in June, so come and watch it if you could :)

Maison night again on Thursday, it was eventful, but I'm glad that everything turned out okay. It was fun, didn't get drunk and turned out to be the one making sure everyone is fine.

Ju asked whether fire is hot.

Nick said : " I'm fine.... just dizzy..."

So clearly, they were the ones who got high and wasted. Hahaa... Ju I'm not defaming you okay? It's just that you're so adorable and funny when you get high, and at least I'm not telling the washroom story here... ok I should stop here, hehe.

Some people are happy drunk, they are funny when they are high.

Some people are psycho drunk, they beat people up when they are drunk.

Some people are emo drunk, they get all emo and cry.

Some people are stone drunk, they just sit, stone and erm, stone.

Some people are crazy drunk, they tend to do stupid , crazy stuff they wouldn't do when they are not drunk.

Some people are kinky drunk, they get all horny.

So which kind of drunk are you? ;)

Thought you should know, I've tried my best to let go of you, but I don't want to, I just gotta say it all before I go, Just so you know.

2007-04-02T18:22:00.000+08:00

Mood: Not so fine, need more sleep.

Listening to: Just So You Know - Jesse McCartney

(Fine, he might not be someone that I usually listen to , but this song is honestly quite okay)

Guess what, one of my friends is getting married.

I'm really really happy for her :)

Me and Tiff was talking to this twelve-year-old little girl that day...

Me : " when I was your age, I love Spice Girls and Britney Spears!"

*Girl look at me innocently*

Tiff : " Do you know who spice girls are?"

Girl : " No."

A short strong no. I stopped and look at her then to Tiff, she was looking at me with mouth open too. It's Spice Girls! I used to have their doll figures and stickers! And this young thing here who is 8 years younger then me know nothing bout them. I feel old , not like oh-fuck-I'm-gonna-have-wrinkle, but "wow... I grew up... I'm twenty this year... wow..." , I realised that I already been through my childhood and my teen years.

Me: " Do you, by any chance know Backstreet boys?"

Girl : "Oh yea! I know them."

*A slight relief*

Tiff : " We used to love Nick Carter! Do you?"

Girl : " He's ok... I prefer Jesse McCartney though! And I love JoJo!"

WHAT?! Nick Carter is just okie now... I used to adore him so much. Oh well , I agree that he doesn't look that good now, but when I was her age, he was the hot thing!

Oh well.... Sooner or later , My Chemical Romance to them is gonna be like Carpenters to us. Old but nice. Can you imagine 10 years from now, Light and Easy will be playing Justin Timberlake, My Chemical Romance, Fallout boys

and who knows ,maybe even Linkin Park :p

Don't you say it's too early, baby I don't wanna waste the day. When we've everything on our side, and nothing in our way.

2007-03-31T02:39:00.000+08:00

Mood: I'm having Gastric

Listening To: Waste Another Day - Brooke Fraser

"Each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves.

People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own,

6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly.

In the end, you need to choose 5 people to be tagged and list their names.

After you do that,

leave them a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!"

Shalyn tagged me at the right time, I'm bored.

So here goes,

6 weird things of Janice...

* I can vibrate my eyeballs!! I'm serious. Most of you might already know this anyway :)

* I like to walk around the house aimlessly when I wake up in the morning.

* I like to hide at a secret place in college at times to study or eat or chill or take a nap when I need some time away from pretentious people or I simply just need some time alone. Pau knows where the place is.

Pau: "It's like her Narnia."

* I like to wave to random children when I come across any, and when they return me a wave along with a sweet smile, they make my day.

* I don't know how to burp, I really don't.

* I like using tomato sauce (in squeesing bottle) to draw or write on buttered toast and eat them.

Well... I tag...

Tiffany

Pau

Tim

Adrienne

Juen

If you're as lifeless as I am right now,

feel free to do this tag too :)

I want to thank you for being a part of my forget-me-nots and marigolds, and all the things that don't get old.

2007-03-30T00:22:00.000+08:00

Mood: Great.

Listening To : Let's Get Fucked Up And Die - Motion City Soundtrack (awesome song, go check it out.)

According to Pau, I used to give out this "I'm goth and I'm cool, but I don't like you" vibe.

According to Tiffany, I say "Okie" in a very cute way.

According to Jin, I'm a very good sister.

According to Tim, I'm the goddess of lame.

According to Sean, he's hot, which I don't agree...

wait, that's not my point.

According to Faye, I'm sweet and cute *got all shy and hide at a corner*

According to Jen, she loves my Hong Kong canton accent.

According to Crystal, I changed.

According to Uthzz, I got nice ass. (Go ahead laugh)

According to me...

I love all of them for they are such good friends.

You know what I realized these few days?

Janice , Jin, Pau, Tiffany.

2 of us have boobs, 2 of us have penis.

2 of us are single, 2 of us are in a relationship

2 of us drive kembara, 2 of us don't.

2 of us are in single parent family, 2 of us are in normal family.

2 of us can speak mandarin, 2 of us couldn't.

2 of us got into an accident within the last three months, 2 of us didn't.

2 of us are still in ADP, 2 of us don't.

2 of us always wear watches , 2 of us don't

(Jin's doesn't count, cause his watch always points at 6.30, it's spoilt.)

2 of us go to Hong Kong often, 2 of us don't.

2 of us are DotA-ing , 2 of us are not.

(I'm at a cyber cafe with Jin and Pau)

2 of us had sneaked into someone's house, 2 of us didn't.

2 of us share the same phone model, 2 of us are using different phones.

2 of us used to study in Klang, 2 of us didn't.

2 of us have brothers at home, 2 of us have sisters.

I wonder why am I so free,

my procrastinating skill is getting better.

Not good.

They've been swimming in the wrong water, now they're pulling me down, but I am clinging to you, never letting go, cos I know that you'll lift me out.

2007-03-19T23:42:00.000+08:00

mood: Okay

Listening to: Lifeline - Brooke Fraser

Life with Tiffany, Pau and Jin is always filled with action packed adventures.

Last night, after our Hartamas session with Pau & Jin, I drove Tiff down to Klang to see Sean, cause they miss each other so much and Tiff wanted to surprise Sean and ... Okay that's not the point.

So when we were driving back from Klang...

Tiff: FUCK! I left my keys in Jin's car! and my mum don't know that I'm out this late! (it was 4am)

So after a few phone calls, and since Jin wasn't picking up his phone, we decided to drive to his house and try to wake him up so that we could get the keys. Well I've only been to his house once but I could still kind of remember the way to his house.

We reached there and the gate was locked. So I decided to climb over the gate and only to find myself at a wrong front door. So I told Tiff to wait outside while I climbed over to the next house, which was a wrong one too. And so I climbed again, this time, I was at Jin's house's front door .

After that, I opened the gate and let Tiff in.I remembered that Jin has this spare key in one of the shoes, so we sneaked in after we found the key.

Once we were in, we looked around and found Jin's phone on the table downstairs and he was upstairs.

Stupid boy!!!! *##@^^&$#%^$#@.....

Just as we were cursing, we heard footstep... "Hailat!" was the exact word in my mind. So Tiff hid under the stairs and me behide a sofa, then I saw this hairless leg coming down from the stairs and it was Jin and we couldn't help it but gasped out loudly "Thank god la!"

The look on Jin's face was priceless. Just priceless, it's worth more than anything.

Next time, keep your phone near you, and remember to take your keys before you leave any place.

Even if it means infinity through, if being productive is being with you, then baby I don't want to waste another day.

2007-03-14T22:41:00.000+08:00

mood: Confused

Listening To: Waste another day- Brooke Fraser

People who have no originality should go and suck their own dick.

Or their own pussy.

No, I don't feel like I'm home.

I'm sorry, but yea my friends are more important to me.

They were there when I needed someone,

they were there to support me.

No, you guys didn't.

Nick... I miss you...

I wanna runaway

Blerh...

Curse me and my emo moment.

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,not somebody just to get me through the night.

2007-03-03T20:04:00.000+08:00

Mood: relaxed

Listening to: Way back into love - Hugh Grant & Haley Bennett/Drew Berrymore

This post is dedicated to Tiff.

TIFFANY

*~ is the girl I didn't bother to get to know more in my first year of Taylor's ADP

*~ is the girl who was close to this girl who was close to me,copied me, then dumped me, then sucked up to her, then copied her, then dumped her as well saying that she think she's on par with Tiff... nevermind if you don't get what I mean, tiff knows, but that bitch was the reason we didn't get close at first and also one of the reason we got close in the end.

*~ is the girl who got me into a lot of wild nights.

*~ is the girl who has a supply of shoes for all the girls in ADP.

*~ is the girl who I was with when we had our first tire-punctured situation.

*~ is the girl who accompanied me talking at a mamak the whole night and drove me to the airport to send him off in the end.

*~ is the girl who I share a lot of songs with.

*~ is the girl who was sort of the cause of me hitting a tow truck.

*is the girl who made out with wankit* (name changed for privacy purpose),who clearly said that he doesn't have a girlfriend. The next day a psycho girl called her the claiming that she's his girlfriend, which we later found out that she's not. Whoo... damn dramatic.

*~is the girl who is always there for me when I feel like shit.

*~ is the girl who took me to church, and got me to stand up while a whole church-lot of people clapped for me, thinking that I'm going to church from then on.... I'm not even a christian.

*~ is the girl who made a poster for Rain's concert saying that she got his baby, and included her phone number on it. This caused lame people calling her from everywhere, for a pic of her holding the poster went on to some korean newspaper. Now I have a friend who is famous in Korea, awesome possum la deh!

*~ is the girl who is immune to alchohol. Someone get her high please.

*~ is the girl who would come all the way to college to see me even though she already graduated from it.

*~ is the girl who I was with when we saw this gigantic snake in the middle of the road in the middle of the night.

*~ is the girl I will always stand up for.

I love ya Tiff.

I will not kiss you, cause the hardest part of this is leaving you.

2007-02-06T22:41:00.000+08:00

mood: missing someone badly

Listening To: Cancer - My Chemical Romance

How could I be so stupid?

Waited at aisle C and you were at E or F, haha...

Do you know?

That feeling which I cannot pen down when you said:

"I already boarded the aerotrain..."

I couldn't hold back my tears.

but thank god,

you came back for me,

and also thanks to those kind immigration people,

I was able to pass you those tissues...

I promised myself not to cry,

but I just couldn't help it but to let it out

when you hugged me and kissed me on my forehead.

Also , thanks Tiffany,

if it wasn't for her,

I wouldn't have met you.

From the moment you walked pass through the immigration again

up till now,

I couldn't help it but to replay all those time we had together.

Thursday night.

You calling me Jasmine.

Us singing to MCR.

Us singing to Fergelicious , your fav part is the gym part.

Your kisses and hugs.

Stranger Than Fiction.

Chit chatting with them at the park till morning.

Mid Valley.

Topshop and Zara.

Coffee Bean.

Those meaningful talk we had.

You waiting for me outside of the toilet though I asked you not to.

You waiting for me outside my drum class though I didn't expect you to.

Your smile.

The way you look at me.

The way you kept quiet and smile when everyone was teasing us.

Dancing RnB though they are playing crappy trance and still had fun.

Petrol Staion.

They way you smell.

The way you look for me from the immigration counter.

The way you look at me one last time.

Do take care of yourself there,

and I'll be fine here,

don't you worry.

Hugz and Muackz.

And yes,

I will miss you .

Culture

2007-01-21T21:26:00.000+08:00

And I don't wanna hear you tell yourself ,that these feelings are in the past ,you know it doesn't mean they're off the shelf, because pain's built to last

mood: relax

Listening to: Heal Over - KT Tunstall

"Darren picks up the maple syrup and waves it in front of my face. I put my hand up, blocking out the view of him pouring it over his toast and bacon.

'Man, that's disgusting,' I say.

'Over two hundred million people can't be wrong.'

I smile. "So why don't you eat with chopsticks? Over two billion people can't be wrong.' "

~ Sophie,"The Murderers' Club" by PD Martin

so... two hundred million people in the States eat bacon with maple syrups.

Well, it might taste good... haha

should try it one day.

But what Sophie said is true,

so what if a majority of people are doing the same thing,

or a tradition,

it doesn't mean that the thing they do is the only right way, or good way.

I remember hearing an Italian said,

"We Italian don't put pineapples on our pizza."

but why not?

Aloha Chicken is still my favorite pizza choice,

extra cheese please :p

yea, so crystal,

there's nothing wrong with me dipping my kaya&butter toast into sambal belachan!

And Jien,

There's nothing wrong with me eating my butter toast with Ketchup!!

Yum.....

A - Z Survey

2007-01-07T00:49:00.000+08:00

The Littlest Things That Take Me There,I Know It Sounds Lame But It's So True,I Know It's Not Right, But It Seems Unfair,That The Things Are Reminding Me Of You...

Mood: so-so

Listening To: Littlest Thing - Lily Allen

A ~ Z

A- Available: Yes, I'm single and available, still waiting for that perfect someone

to sweep me off my feet and say that he loves me

A - Age: 19 going on 20... Gosh, now only I realize that I'm entering the 20's of

my life... time is sure flying pass fast.

A - Annoyance: My mum's nagging... serious, I can't stand it.

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B - best friend: Yea I have a few, and they know who they are ;)

B - Best feature: I think everyone's best feature is his/her smile. Well everyone

looks good with a smile

B - Beer: I used to hate beer, I still remember my dad used to feed me beer foam and

i hated it. Now, I drink it socially and I prefer Heineken.

B - Birthday: 30th July! My favorite month of the year. I share birthdate with Hilary Swank and Mr. Terminator himself.

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C - Crush: Shh.... promise me you'll tell no one k? It's....JOHNNY DEPP!!! hahhaa...

C - Car: My Sweet little Myvi, which takes me everywhere I want to go, can't complain :)

C - Candy: is great comfort food.

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D - Day or night: Breezy Day and Starry Night

D - Dream Car: Gimme an orange mini cooper convertible please...

D - Dogs or Cats: Dogs AND Cats

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E - Egg nog: Nope, thank you very much.

E - E-mail: Damn, this reminds me that I forgot to e-mail my dad!

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F - Favorite color: Duh... Orange baby, Orange.

F - Favorite Band(s): I listen to anything that sounds good to me, at the moment, the bands that I listen to the most are The Sounds, New Found Glory and +44 (Travis Barker!)

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G – Greatest achievement: To be able to vibrate my eyeballs? Yes, I'm serious, I could do that.

G - Gummy Bears or Worms: Both! Just don't give me those banana flavoured ones,yuck. Oh yea, I also love Cola Bottle Gummies

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H - Hair Color: Black.

H - Height: 3 years ago it was 170cm, measured it during PE class, havn't measured it after that.

H - Happy: is what mood i want to be in now.

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I - Instrument: I'm a drummer-to-be!

I - Idol: why not you guys make a wild guess? hahaha... yeeaaaa rite! Johnny Depp!

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J - Jewelry: I love those one-of-a-kind funky ones, or else I just don't wear any.

J - Job: I always wanted to be a fashion designer, but my family opposed my designer dream,but I'm not giving up.

J - Jail: I've never been to one, would love to visit the ever so famous Alcatraz

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K - Kids: Adorable! Don't you ever dare abusing one!

K - Kickboxing or karate: hmm... don't you think it would be interesting to have a fusion of these two?

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L - Longest Car Ride: It was the ride from San Francisco to Vancouver...when I was 7 i think

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M - Milk Flavor: Normal please. I occationally drink those chocolate flavored ones, only when I feel a bit kiddish.

M - Most missed memory: buying those yummy curry fishballs when I was a kid in Hong Kong, my high school hostel life, those tight hugs he gave me, that moment we took that perfect family potrait, and yes...Langkawi :)

M - Movie Last Watched: The Guardian... I loved it!

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N - Number of Siblings: Only my not-so-little little brother, he's damn tall

N - Number of Tattoos: none at the moment

N - Nickname: I have a lot!

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O - One wish : To meet Johnny Depp

O - One regret: No point looking back now

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P - Pick a number: erm...7

P - Piercings: I'm not going to get a lot of piercings now, it's so typical

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Q - Quick or Slow?: I like both, depends on occations and my mood

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R - Reason to smile: Since when we need a reason to smile? I smile when I feel like it

R - Reality TV Show: I only watch them when I manage to catch one while browsing through the channels

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S - Song Last Heard: Keep Holding On - Avril Lavigne. I love this song.

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T - Time you woke up: 11 something

T - Time Now: 2.06am, according to my not so accurate PC clock

T - Time for bed: Whenever I feel like it

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U - Unpredictable: I could be, except the I love Orange and Johnny Depp part. Well that's me, if I love something, it's very obvious, I say it out loud.

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V - Vegetable you hate: CUCUMBER!!! I hate cucumber! There was this time I accidentally ate some, I felt like puking,urgh! However, I don't mind pickles with burger.

V - Vacation spot: Places with nice beaches

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W- Worst habit: erm... procrastinating? guilty.

W- Where are you going to travel: Anywhere I feel like going

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X - X-Ray: Twice. Once of my spine and the other one of my lungs.

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Y - Year it is now: 2007!

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Z - Zoo Animal: Should either be free or well taken care of.

Z - Zodiac Sign: I'm a leo...ROAR!!!!!

~*~

Little things like a tight hug reminds me of you.

2007

2007-01-04T13:49:00.000+08:00

Keep Holding On... Cause You Know We'll Make It Through, We'll Make It Through...

Mood: Sober

Listening to : Keep Holding On - Avril Lavigne

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

yea... a brand new year...

didn't have a good start though.

Don't worry ,

I'm hanging on, Standing strong.

Shattered but not broken ;)

So let's see...

Langkawi was awesome, wish it never had to end

That's me , Charlie and Limae. We kayaked to this island with a beautiful beach. Did I mention I love beaches?

The Girls: Limae, Fiona, me and Sharlyn... Ching was not in the pic, busy talking with g or hengjoon i think, I couldn't remember

I don't have the picture of the guys as a whole, as you can see, there's Sarv mixing drinks, Benny behind there, then Isa and I

The Girls again, this time with Black

That's Darren, Benny, Sarv, Fiona(can't be seen in the pic) and I playing black jack on the bus

I don't have pictures with Raof, Daniel,Ching , G and Hengjoon

I'm gonna miss sharing rooms with you guys,

I'm gonna miss drinking in the afternoon and got high,

i'm gonna miss drinking all night long and going to the beach after that,

I'm gonna miss climbing over the reception counter to get toilet keys and room keys at 3am,

I'm gonna miss kayaking and playing games on the beach,

I'm gonna miss Ikan Pari hunting,

I'm gonna miss the stars, the lucky charms (Isa , Limae ,me and a silver spoon), the scooter rides , texas, everything.

~*~

I'll Hold On

I love it

2006-11-29T00:19:00.000+08:00

Hold My Hand And Let Me Know That You Feel Me Too ,Look Into My Eyes And Tell Me Baby I Love You

Mood: Giggly Jiggily Awesome

Listening To: Smack That-Akon & Eminem

This post is dedicated to all the people in theater class.

No, I'm not a student of that class, but I helped out a bit during their finals.

The plays were awesome,

the amount of effort they put into it was amazing,

and the outcome was like "whoa!".

However,

to me,

helping them out is like watching a play,

a different kind of play,

a play about how people who don't know each other well,

get together ,work together and putting things together.

What's important is not the outcome,

it's the process of it that made all these worthwhile,

that made this memorable.

Anyway,

enough of this emo shit,

here's some pics I took today:

Daddy Uthzz and Me, before he applied eyeliner for his pirate role (Johnny Depp!)

Mabel, our professional make-up artist, and may sze, as babara... love the hair, suits the character perfectly,hehe

Nicola, as the princess, having her hair curl, while Michelle, the queen, watches. Oh yea, Michelle looks good with the nice make up :)

Isa, acting as Frankie Fong Fei Kei, and Me. Don't know what happened to me, and don't know why Isa and that cute expression. His hair is specially styled to fit the character, hahahahaha... couldn't stop laughting when I first saw it. Better take a second look pal, you wont get to see him having his hair like that anymore ;p

So that's all for theater.

My little brother, Charlez and Me, the ultimate best sister in the world! *ahem ahem*

Oh well,

was having dinner with him that night. Hmm... Charlezie, you look like a girl here, hhahahaaha... you take good care of yourself kay? Hugz

~*~

I love it when you do that to me, it gives me butterfies and I kept smiling the whole day

Photos

2006-11-26T18:51:00.000+08:00

Keep Ya Head Up High, Feet Down Low And Follow Your Heart

Mood: Im Fine

Listening To: Im'ma Shine - Youngbloodz (Step Up Soundtrack)

Warning: This Post is gonna contain lots of pictures,

so if you don't like it

then buzz off.

Me, Justin and Amy, last sem. Justin, I miss you, come back fast.

Suel-A , I miss you too, come visit us k?

Went back to my old school to perform, met with a lot of old school mates

then I saw him, he used to be my little brother, then he stopped talking to me after some misunderstanding. He came up to me that night and told me that he actually missed me, and he apologized. Couldn't explain how touched I was.

Benji ,Crystal and my Finger, love you both, also, not to forget

Michelle!! And Nicola too, but sorry la babe, I don't have your picture.

Uthzz...'s shoulder, muakakakka..... love ya daddy!

Crystal and her imaginary friend,haha... went to Ikea with her that day. Love hanging out with her .

My kitchen , kindly ignore the price.

she likes the heart so much she literally ordered me to take the picture

Random fitting room camwhoring

Isn't he the most gorgeous thing ever?

When he smokes...

When he gets an award...

Even when he's put into a funny costume...hahahaha....I love Johnny :)

Sexy

2006-11-18T23:26:00.000+08:00

You Tryin, Admit It ,But You Just Can Fight The Feelin Inside

Mood: Feel like going clubbing

Listening To: Get Up - Ciara ft. Chamillionaire

I know I've blogged about this before but I'm gonna do it again

My Definition Of Sexy:

* People who are creative

*People who are original

*People who are serious about their profession

*People who are comfortable with how they look

*People with nice eyes

*People who are sophisticated

*Johnny Depp driving an orange Mini Convertible

Hahaha...

now that's sexy,

not skinpy outfit, not stick thin body,

Not big boobs or nice arse.

~*~

Went to two open houses,

Aunty Nora's and Raof's.

Was talking a lot with Litim at Aunty Nora's,

Thx to Litim, I didn't feel bored.

Raof's was fun as well,

met up with Sharlyn and the other Tmn Tun people.

I find that going to open houses

is a good way to catch up with those friends you haven't met for a long time.

~*~

Oh yea,

before I forget,

Boat House@ Tmn Tun is good,

as in the food is good,

if you could,

try the chocolate fondue for dessert,

it doesnt come in huge serving,

but it's satisfying.

It's served with strawberries and marshmellows,

the best part is,

the chocolate is spiked with Brandy,

yum...

I should have licked the glass.

haha...

I think he loves her

2006-11-13T22:07:00.000+08:00

No Matter What We Go Through,You Step Up I'll Step Up Too

mood: Down

Listening To: Step Up- Samantha Jade

Have you ever feel lonely?

Although you have friends around you?

Have you ever feel like you found something ,

have feelings for it,

then that special something being grabbed away from you?

Have you ever feel torn in between?

Have you ever feel so lost you don't know what to do?

Have you ever smile,

just to reassure your friends that you are ok,

but deep inside your are deeply wounded?

Have you ever keep telling yourself not to think about a certain something,

but your tears refuse to obey?

Groan...

fuck this shit ,

I don't want to think about it anymore,

I don't want to be hurt again.

I Heart Drums

2006-11-05T21:07:00.000+08:00

With A Heart Silhouetted The Perfect Passion

mood: Excited

Listening to : Whole Again- Edge Of Fire

Whee... I love drums :)

Just started my drum class today

And for the first time in my life I bought my very first drumsticks,

and I actually played.

I have long for this for so long ,

to be able play drums,

to be able to tell which is snare, crash, ride, toms ,hi-hat and bass,

before this my parents said drums are not for girls,

yea right, nonsense!

But I managed to convince them, hehe...

There... me and my drumsticks...haha...vain - -"

~*~

Went to the ADP Halloween party last night,

and guess what I dressed up as...

Countess Dracula

Muakakaka......

oh well, had fun there, I like the eyeball drink,

and Benji did something stupid,haha...

he better don't read this.

Me, Crys and Benji ( yea, I know, it's dark)

Uthzzie was Captain Jack Sparrow!!!

Alright , that's all for now,

I promise I'll blog soon ;)

Real Friends

2006-10-16T21:42:00.000+08:00

Now I'm not alone ,with you I'm whole ,I gotta let you know ,you got me good...

mood: better than yesterday :)

Listening to: Thank You - Dragon red

Shits happen, I know.

And I realized who my true friends are,

not people who only talk to you

when they need you to mark attendance for them.

Not people who give you a plastic smile when you greet them.

Not people who play pranks on you and never know their limits till they make you cry.

Not people who seem like they care for you,

but when things happen they just give you a sad face and say "owh, poor thing"

and keep going on and on about their own life.

Not people who back off

when you tell them you need their help.

Real friends ...

are people who stick by your side no matter what,

tell you that you are wrong when you are being an arsehole ( but they still love you),

they are people who would stay awake till 4am,

cause they are worried about you.

They are people who would skip class just to make sure you are alright.

They are people who actually keep you so close to their heart,

they could feel your fear,

and feel relieved and proud of you when you solve the problem.

You might not find a lot of real friends in your life,

but a few are more than enough.

p/s: Crystal and Boonie, I love you girls, this post is dedicated to you two :)

muackz and hugz

Oppss I Did It Again

2006-10-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

Oppss... I Did It Again

Listening To: Hurt - Christina Aguilera

Mood: OK I guess...

I'm sorry,

I know I had hurt you.

I'm sorry,

for this time I have to choose what's good for me.

I'm sorry,

for this time it's about what I need and what I want.

I'm sorry,

and I do not know what else to say

but

I'm sorry...

You, You and You

2006-09-28T00:57:00.000+08:00

I Have My Doubts, But What If I'm Right

Mood: Complicated

Listening To : Snakes On The Plane (Bring It)- Cobra Starship

5 kids in the Honda,

with the driver cutting lines without putting signals,

at the back mirror,

there was a sign that said "Baby Inside"

Yea right, u're driving like a baby

~*~

I guess I was lucky, damn lucky i think

I went to buy a RM 30 T'n'G card,

the lady explained that RM 10 will be the card's cost,

so there would be RM20,

then I left that place.

When I was back,

I used my mum's smart tag to check the balance,

It was a freaking 3 digits figure, 140

and when I tested it on the road,

I realised I was not dreaming,

yea, go on, curse.

~*~

You,

I'm glad that we are still good friends,

and that we went out that day to get a present for the girl you like now,

thanks for still trusting me,

you're an awesome person,

go get her.

~*~

You,

I'm glad that we are still good friends as well.

you can read me so perfectly that you know what I'm thinking and how I feel

just by listening to my voice over the phone.

Thank you so much for you still care for me,

and giving me calls once in a while to see how I'm doing.

Sometimes I wonder,

how will things be if I did not change.

Rock on,

I totally love your voice,

keep on singing,

and I promise you I'll try my best to go to every single of the gigs.

~*~

You,

I'm glad that I've met you,

and you gave me a chance to try recording,

you do not know how excited I was

when I heard my voice over the radio,

basically, I freaked out.

Love all those fridays I spent there,

and all the jokes we shared,

sometimes I hear them in your program.

Wish to see you soon,

and good luck in your career.

~*~

You,

I'm glad that you are the instructor,

you're a damn good dancer.

Promise me,

don't give up even though there are not many students.

i love ur classes,

I don't know why,

but I always laugh through the whole class.

~*~

You,

I'm glad that i've met you,

and I love you.

Thanks for saving me that night.

Thanks for loving me for who I am,

and telling me that it's ok to be myself,

and telling me that I'm pretty when people make me feel ugly,

I can't thank enough.

We both made the correct choices,

as I told you,

people make choices for we have no choice,

quite true I think.

Random

2006-08-17T16:48:00.000+08:00

Then you'll find the strength that will guide your way,You'll learn to begin to trust the voice within

mood: Jolly Jolly

Listening To: Call Me When You're Sober - Evanescense

This one is to all the girls

Christina Aguilera- The Voice Within

Young girl don't cry

I'll be right here when your world starts to fall

Young girl it's alright

Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly

When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream

Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems

No one ever wants or bothers to explain

Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

Chorus:

When there's no one else, look inside yourself

Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within

Then you'll find the strength that will guide your way

You'll learn to begin to trust the voice within

Young girl don't hide

You'll never change if you just run away

Young girl just hold tight

Soon you're gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed

It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid

No one reaches out a hand for you to hold

When you look outside look inside to your soul

Chorus

Life is a journey

It can take you anywhere you choose to go

As long as you're learning

You'll find all you'll ever need to know

(be strong)

You'll break it

(hold on)

You'll make it

Just don't forsake it because

No one can tell you what you can't do

No one can stop you, you know that I'm talking to you

Chorus

It's like it's speaking right at me, haha... I just love it so much :)

oh well, it's been a long time since my last post

(eh? It seems like I always start my post with this line...hehe)

Anyway, I'm still on holiday

I went to this Kiwanis charity dinner my mum and her friends ( Kiwanis Club Ampang Jaya)organised

That's me , all dressed up in my mum's car :p

My Brother and I

Litim and I

~*~

Oh yea, and ADP Prom was kind of fun :) Me and Amy were dancing on the dance floor after the dinner.Then suddenly , dunno from which part of earth,came a group of aunties and uncles dancing there as well. Since Amy and I were too concentrate on dancing, when we finally realised that , we were laughing like hell and left the dance floor and took some pictures

Yea, I know, it's not really clear, but that's Cheryl and Me

Oh well... just wanna update a bit. No worries people, I'll blog again soon

travel alone

2006-07-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

The memories shakin apart from the weeds that grow...

Mood: Neutral

Listening To: No Hay Igual - Nelly Furtado

I seriously don't mind travelling to places by myself sometimes.

Since there is no one to talk to,

you will observe more of the surroundings and the people around you.

I like the point that

I could just be quiet and think deeply,

to think of things from different angles.

By the end of the journey,

I feel......

not loneliness

not exhaustion,

but contentedness...

Lonely2

2006-07-11T11:00:00.000+08:00

You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you've left behind...

Mood : Complicated

Listening To : People shooting and killing each other ( I'm in a cyber cafe ;p )

Sometimes...

*~ I opened my locker ,expecting to see lots of Jill's stuff in it, then I came to realized that she's not sharing the locker with me anymore... she left ADP...

*~ I did something brave and new, but when I look around , I realized that none of my friends are there to laugh at or with me...

*~ I just finish a new brilliant book, but then I realized that there is no one to share my view with...

*~ I want to watch a certain movie, but then my buddies are too busy with their gf/bf or they are just too busy with their own life...

*~ I feel emo though I don't want to, and then I realized there's no one around me at that emo moment, so I hide in my blanket...

*~ I just wish I could have what I wish for...

Lonely...

2006-07-10T00:06:00.001+08:00

Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger I heard you say

Mood: Lonely

Listening To : Volverte A Ver - Juanes

Hey, people, I'm back. I don't know why, but I'm feeling lonely and emo now. It's alright to be emo once in a while right? Guess what, my beloved Mum, she left me at home alone, went to her friend's place to stay overnight, and she want me to stay at home which means I can't go out with my friends... yea i know, the world is never fair, I just have to accept it.

I wish I have someone to hug me now, and tell me everything's gonna turn out alright.

I don't even know what I want to say next, so I guess I'll stop here...

Tokyo Drift

2006-06-24T13:47:00.000+08:00

Wonder If you Know, How They Live In Tokyo...

Mood: Idle

Listening To: Tokyo Drift ( Fast And Furious) - Teriyaki Boyz (They are good...)

People Envy Your Compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.

People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

What Do People Envy About You?

Hey people, I know it's been a long time since my last decent post, but I'm not dead, here I am with my latest post.

Here are a few things I wanted to share with you guys:

1) I broke up with him. Don't worry I'm fine here, I'm just sad that he doesn't want to be friends again... long story. I just want to let him know I'm thankful for the time we had, and I'm really really seriously sorry that I hurt you... I didn't want it to end up this painfully... well... I'm really sorry... though I know it's not gonna help...

2) Tokyo Drift, great thing. Love the movie so much that I watched it twice in cinema. Well, to me, drifting is the prettiest move a car can do. The funny thing is, why must orange cars always are the ones being blown up? I mean, like MI3, they blew up the orange Lamboughini Gallardo ; and in Tokyo Drift, they blew the orange car too, what the hell, so not fair, I love orange cars!

3) I'm planning to get a Satria Neo. ( Yea, you're right, an orange one) Well, I really need a car to get me around, I don't need a big musle car , yet not too small so my brother can drive it after I go to US, and with a tight budget my dad gave me, I figured out that Satria Neo is worth considering.So people, wish me luck, I'll pray hard ;p

Well, I guess that's it for now. Tag me if you wanna talk to me bout the car thing, thx

Fun things

2006-06-12T19:38:00.001+08:00

Let Me Keep My Faith In Innocent Eyes...

Mood: Happy , can't complain

Listening To: Moments - Ayumi Hamasaki

I am bored... so I did this, Thanks to Ashwin ;)

Cheese Pizza

Traditional and comforting.
You focus on living a quality life.
You're not easily impressed with novelty.
Yet, you easily impress others.

What's Your Pizza Personality?

Ohhhh...

You Should Be a Painter

You have the vision, patience, and skill to bring your unique visions to canvas.
And you're even tempered enough not to cut your ear off in the process!

What Sort of Artist Should You Be?

Hey!! That's like my childhood dream!

Your Birthdate: July 30

You have the type of personality that people either love or hate.
You're opinionated, dramatic, intense, and very outspoken.
And some people can't get enough of you - they're totally addicted.
Others, well, they wish you were a little more reserved.

Your strength: Your flair

Your weakness: If you think it, you say it

Your power color: Scarlet red

Your power symbol: Inverted triangle

Your power month: March

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Which is kind of true, haha...

You Should Drive a Toyota FJ Cruiser

A true adventurer, you're always up for trying the latest new thing.
And you need a car that will take you anywhere, because there are no roads where you're going!

What 2007 Car Should You Drive?

No! I want a convertible mini in orange!!! Well, this is not bad though... sounds like me, haha

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.
Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.
You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.
Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.
For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

You know... This is kind of true, but it's not always a good thing though

Well that was fun, I actually did more than this, but if i continue posting them here, my post would be damn long , haha, so I'll stop here

Show Me What It's Like To Be The last One Standing

2006-06-09T21:50:00.002+08:00

Show Me What It's Like To Be The last One Standing...

Mood: Scared and Confused

Listening To: Why Can't I - Liz Phair

9th June... I bet you people will say " Yea Janice, I know you are going to say World Cup",

but NO! Being Janice, I'm officially announcing.......TODAY IS JOHNNY DEPP'S BIRTHDAY ( by the way he's 43 today ) So guys, celebrate, muakakakakaka...

gosh, how I wish I could say Happy Birthday to him personally.

Anyway, have you ever feel scared and confused at the same time? I am now... I know, to some of my friends , I may seem to be tough all time, but sometimes, I do feel weak inside.

I'm tired, I'm not gonna do anything but let the flow goes, and see where this will lead me to. So people out there, if you feel weak and need to be consoled, no matter if u're a girl or a guy, don't feel embarassed, it's really fine to show your feelings.

Watched "Cars" and "The Omen", "Cars" is really nice, and funny, I really enjoyed it.To me, it's not really a car-toon for young kids, they would probally not get the jokes, it's more like a car-toon for teenagers and adults."The Omen" is ok... there was a few scenes that really freaked me out, but other then that... the story was so-so, i do understand it...couldn't comment a lot on it.

Well,since im tired and confused and scared, im going off to sleep, nope, not gonna watch World Cup tonight, I just don't have the mood for it, good nite people, good nite planet Earth...ZZZzzzzzz.....

There's Where She Lies, Broken Inside...

2006-05-31T23:36:00.000+08:00

There's Where She Lies, Broken Inside...

Mood: Ask My Hamster, He Knows...

Listening To: El Beso Del Final - Christina Aguilera

Well, it's been quite a while since I last post . Watched X-men, it was awesome, don't want to be a spoiler here but for those who haven't watch it, go grab a ticket. My fav is still Xavier, but acting wise, I admire Sir Ian Mckellen, he's ...he's...he's just...I dunno wat word is suitable to describe him, awesome is not good enough!

I wish I could go somewhere for a long holiday, some where with a beautiful clear beach; some where with Johnny Depp in it ; some where with original latin music and I can just dance like mad and no one would care; some where with nice food... aww...sweeeeeet. I'm not really tired, it's just that I want to go different places and see different things, life's so short yet so many desire to fullfill, so, carpe diem!

I don't know why but I miss things and people easily today, like when i was in college today, I seem to miss every single one of my friends, even if I saw them in college; I miss my oranges and orange juice in the fridge; I miss my hamster; I miss the dandelions; I miss that tub od ice cream i finished last week; I miss... well, you get the point, you'll probably think " Geez... what's wrong with Janice today?",but guess what, I miss you too, yea, you who's reading my blog! I know I'm weird, and I like it >_<" !